I am the Fool

 

 

Oh my dear lord, what do you have in store for me, my soul so longs to know!  This darkness is so great, I know not where you are or if you are.  How, oh Lord, do I find you? I have searched so many years to find you and feel the love, peace and bliss that are promised with our re-uniting. Sometimes I feel a fool for having such faith in something that I only feel within my heart is real, when the world is in such darkness and so much pain is about me. Am I a fool who believes in thee even though the Light is now so dim it is almost imperceptible? I have discovered the pain of searching outside of myself and rejected this body of pain, knowing its result is not what I desire and have begun the searching within. Within the bosom of my heart I have been purifying and nurturing my desires, rejecting my body of pain and all the imperfections it thrusts upon me. I go within, with no need to reach out.

 

With my mind I review my life and see the ways I fed the body of pain permitting it to  grow its impure desires and I see how the darkness must be used to grow the new seed, producing a new fruit that must be birthed. I battle and fight within me to push this pain away, protecting this precious seed I have planted. And suddenly I feel its growth, the visions of the past bring a new understanding of my life and its journey to this point and this new understanding brings with it a liberation and wisdom that can only be felt within the heart, a release occurs and I give birth to my divine seed, my true self, allowing the vehicle of my personality to relinquish its control to the soul, permitting me to fullfil my mission here in the physical plane. Through many cycles, I have completed my journey here on earth and God willing, may finally claim my divine inheritance.

I am the Fool.